Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Lombok diving trip

Arrived Praya airport around 10plus.. saw a lot of horse carriages on road, and it seems like one of the local transport.. interesting scene: calf hitching a ride on the carriage..

20/11/2013
Haven been sleeping well.. slept at 10am woke up at 1 am. . Perhaps I'm too excited with the thought of catching the sunrise.

The sky turned blue pretty early in lombok. At 5.30am, rushed out.. I'm kiasu I know LOL

Droplets of rain fell on my face.. I was like arghh, chances of sunrise dropped :(

It's 6.04am
Deary Sun is still hidden behind the thick clouds.. but the mother nature took my sunrise and replaced it with a ray of rainbow <3 it's amazing

Sunday, October 20, 2013

My spirtual animals are Deer & butterfly?

Butterfly Spirit Animal & Totem

By Elena Harris, SpiritAnimal.com Editor


The butterfly is one of the most emblematic totem animals symbolizing personal transformation. If you see the butterfly as your totem or spirit animal, pay attention to the areas in your life or personality that are in need of profound change or transformation. Perhaps, this animal totem guides you to be sensitive to your personal cycles of expansion and growth, as well as the beauty of life’s continuous unfolding. An important message carried by the spirit of the butterfly is about the ability to go through important changes with grace and lightness.

Butterfly Symbolism

What is the meaning of the butterfly? This animal totem is primarily associated with symbolism of change and transformation.
  • Powerful transformation, metamorphosis in your life, personality
  • Moving through different life cycles
  • Renewal, rebirth
  • Lightness of being, playfulness
  • Elevation from earthly matters, tuning into emotional or spiritual
  • The world of the soul, the psyche
A secondary meaning of the butterfly is about finding joy in life and lightness of being.



Butterfly totem and transformation

The butterfly is a symbol of powerful transformations. By analogy to the development of this animal, the meaning associated with the butterfly emphasizes the ability to move from one state, perspective, lifestyle to another.
When the butterfly comes into your life as spirit guide, you may be going through or expect important changes in your life. More than changes in your environment, the transformation the butterfly totem points to are more internal: They could be related to your own perspective on a subject, aspects of your personality, or personal habits. Personal transformation is emblematic of the butterfly symbolism.

Butterfly totem symbol of joy and lightness of being

When the butterfly shows up in your life as a spirit animal or totem, it might indicate the need to look at a conflicting situation with more lightness and different perspective. This totem animal is symbolic of lightness of being and elevation from the heaviness of tensions.
This power animal invites those who have a connection with it to bring joy and bliss into their lives. Butterflies often have bright colors. By extension, they are associated with aliveness and brightness. The message of this totem animal is to lighten up and add more color to your life. Perhaps it’s time to express yourself more fully and show your colorful personality.

The Butterfly and the world of the Soul

In many traditions around the world, the butterfly is a symbol of the soul or soul world. For example, in Chinese symbology, it can represent immortality. For the Japanese, a white butterfly symbolizes the soul the departed ones.
In Ancient Greece, butterflies represent the psyche or soul, and its attribute of immortality.

Calling the butterfly totem for support

The butterfly is a powerful animal to call when you need support in times of transition, whether it’s at work, in a relationship, or when you’re doing inner work. Great ally during intense periods of personal transformation, it will add ease and lightness to the process.
This power animal is a good inspiration for adding more color into your life and self-expression. Those who have the butterfly as a totem animal may be naturally inclined to express themselves openly, to reflect their colors into their environment.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Badminton

Its been super long time since i played badminton and not go home strsight after work...
Super excited to know he's coming to the badminton session.. well.. I did my homework, I knew he will attend sometimes. . Tried my luck.. at first thought he will be taking the same car with me.. but.. :(

When he first saw me there.. He said this:"wah.. u can play badminton too, so multi-talent"
*melts Thank you :)

Though he didn't join us for drinks.. He left these words before he leave: "finally get to see you more often now" seriously my heart skipped a beat, dare not look into his eyes And the stupid me gave a close answer "ya finally" dumb jess

Eh.. I make sure myself appear in front of you everyday OK.. it's not by coincidence lorh. . Arghh!! Don't u realized it's only after the dive then u see me so often?!!

Hmm.. at least u r starting to notice me now... feeling so happy.

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

2nd diving trip of My life


4th- 6th Oct..

Company diving trip.. thanks Celvin for backing out last min.. I got the chance to travel cheap

Had been in nestle for a year but still don't know/ not close to most people at level 5. thanks to the trip, I had an enjoyable diving with Ellen, Glen, Norman, hung lin, Jeffery and Shawn!!

Side track.. i really like guys who are knowledgeable in all kinds of things, able to point out what have I did wrong in diving so gently, guide me with what are the correct techniques, look out for me in the under water, not only these someone who is really gentleman, well mannered, gentle.. and of cos the most important thing, someone who treasure and love the sea,who picked up fresh bottle litter in the sea.. someone who said im diving like a mermaid with my hands swimming, and later on that im a anchor OMG. . Heart pounding..I think I'm in love.. <3

Haha..

Anyway,Brulee wasn't very very happy with me when I came back.. she gave me a butt face lorh. . That's revenge for leaving her at home for my fun these 2 days.. hmmmm

Finally after some coaxing.. she's willing to turn around.. :)

Friday, September 20, 2013

给昨天19/09/2013 的自己

一天有24小时,8小时给睡了、8小时给工作霸占了、1小时用在起床加梳洗准备上班去,2小时用在到达路途的地铁公车上、1小时偶尔花在运动上,2-3小时躺在沙发看电视/脸书游览,最后的紧要1小时呢?花在宝贝爱兔 Creme brulee 身上。以上根本没办法加入加班/娱乐/爱好,要不然必须牺牲以上的时间。*郁闷

根本想不起过去的5年我到底做了什么。活着就好像都在忙忙忙。但忙什么?不知道。哈哈!

从今天开始,让我好好的写给昨日的自己,回味活着的意义吧。:)

至给19/09/2013 的自己:

Work was awesome and enjoyable.. Had fun decorating our work area, as if we travelled half the world.. With the holiday theme contest, though we didn't win.. I'm still proud of my team effort.. We were like so... Last min, but still we are third in place for the voting poll :) 

My golden 6 hours: 
1.5 hours spent on swimming yesterday. 10 breast stroke and 2 free style ytd!! --> stamina improved.. It's an achievement!! 今天没白活!:) 

Acc my pupbits 1.5 hours, watched tv 1 hour




 

Sunday, August 18, 2013

下雨篇

掩饰或许是最好的治疗方式。但别妄想时间久了就会忘了, 因为至始至终那只是暂时舒缓的疗方。若无其事装着没有你的日子里无所谓, 真的很累。

两年一转眼的过去了,朋友们也一一得到属于自己的幸福。我呢? 心是否依然死在两年前你硬要分手的那天。。前几天下雨天,经过在分手时待过的公园,感觉好像是昨天发生过的事。你冷酷的绝情,疲惫的声音,夜里的心酸,心碎的无奈。。
 
想说开始新恋情慢慢就会忘掉那些痛吧?但却在“我害怕再度失去”的那种情况下对另一个人非常好, 不料那人也没对我很认真。。。看吧!以为把爱转移到别人身上会让自己心里比较舒服?谁知道踢到脚板了吧。

无可否认那些年的无理取闹是为了确定你爱我,低声下气是证明我在乎,在你面前骄傲是为挽回尊严,神器是希望你后悔,狂妄自大是要逼你吃醋。。那些幼稚。。虽然现在没了意义,也不再重要了。

其实两年的时间足够改变很多事。
我渐渐的失去了当年那份确定你很爱我的自信。

最近不知道怎么了, 开始想起种种我们开始拍拖的事。
硬要把电话输入你电话,你第一份送我的fila coin pouch,学生时候一起搭巴士的甜蜜,棒棒糖, 还有说不完的回忆。。。

5 年的感情,你存起一块钱的习惯,买回想相同款式的pouch。。。但事实上,不管怎么找。。 也找不回同一款,一摸一样当年你送我的感觉了。

因该听了梁靜茹"對不起我愛你"的歌词, 不经意想起了分手时的痛。。。

“想給你聽我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想著你 搭車想著你 闔眼閉眼間 出現的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回應
不想難為你 又不想放棄你 決定告訴你 對不起 我愛你”

夜了。 该睡觉了。
明天起床又是新的一天。

未来男友/老公 不管你现在在世界的那个角落。请快点出现在我面前吧。
晚安了。 *hugs





Saturday, July 13, 2013

Blow

Past midnight, here I'm in JB house.
Not sure is this predestined, but I seems to be here when I am about to face all kinds of major blow in my life.

The first time was harsh, spent about 2-3 weeks here to get over my 5 years boyfriend who decided to gave me up.
I survived thru that crisis though  at that point of time I was mentally and physically wore off.

Now, I'm here to face my 2nd blow.. I was diagnosed with hyperthyroid at the age 26 before turning 27..... Initially, when the doctor released the outcome of the report to me... I was like blurred, what is this? Must be nothing serious cos I have not heard of it..

But the more I google, the more i realized that things aren't as easy as thought.. I'm upset.
Like most famous drama quote, I was thinking the same..... "Why me? I'm still so young... This couldn't be happened to me" 

God mum asked if I'm ok to sleep alone in the room.
I answered why not? And I'm all alone in the bedroom with all lights switched off. 
That was something that the past chicken me will never do... You will either end up quarreling over the lights or fighting one another, if u "shut off my lights"

Perhaps, when you are down with nothing to lose, you will have nothing to fear :)
Or perhaps when you live too long in darkness, it's a human instinct to grow our natural survivor skill.... To live on..

Can't help but bursting into tears this morning when I met Aysel... She said I looked pale, and i started updating her on my condition. The more I talked the more tears flowed naturally hahaha.. 

Alright.. Time for bed.. Patient needs rest now .. To be continued..




Wednesday, April 17, 2013

wonderful Tuesday

Yesterday, company had our soft serve machine trial~ and Mathew is very nice to make me sjora mango peach soft serve ice-cream just for me... Hahaha I love Sjora!!! It's my favourite drink. Sorry guys, still on trial no way u can find it outside. Hahha


First time after I joined nestle... Ppl jio me go dinner and offer to send me home. LOL I know it's on the way. But still appreciate it. :)

very nice sashimi served, thank you



Saturday, March 23, 2013

Achievement of life

At the age of 26 and in the year of 2013, i finally achieved something that I always longed. To swim towards the deep sea, to sink underwater, waving hello to all the marine lifes.

This used to be some kind of plans to amaze someone on his birthday, but action was once and once dragged cos I had serious lack of courage.

Today, many things changed and one of the major fact was we are no longer an item.. Objective of the plan may have changed and even serving different purpose now... Still, I'm very proud of myself to present my first open water licence. :D

Aja aja fighting!!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Luck starts growing in 2013

OMG OMG!!! After making New hairstyle for Chinese New Year, had 2 rounds of midnight MJ to pass the lonely sat and most importantly I've won!!!$122!!!! OMG.. I'm so excited.. First time winning so much!! thanks Jie Jie, Jie fu, kor kor for doting me :) and toast to the new curly for the Lady Luck.. More luck awaits.. Huat ah!! 美美hor!! Though not very curly.. I love it..