Not sure is this predestined, but I seems to be here when I am about to face all kinds of major blow in my life.
The first time was harsh, spent about 2-3 weeks here to get over my 5 years boyfriend who decided to gave me up.
I survived thru that crisis though at that point of time I was mentally and physically wore off.
Now, I'm here to face my 2nd blow.. I was diagnosed with hyperthyroid at the age 26 before turning 27..... Initially, when the doctor released the outcome of the report to me... I was like blurred, what is this? Must be nothing serious cos I have not heard of it..
But the more I google, the more i realized that things aren't as easy as thought.. I'm upset.
Like most famous drama quote, I was thinking the same..... "Why me? I'm still so young... This couldn't be happened to me"
God mum asked if I'm ok to sleep alone in the room.
I answered why not? And I'm all alone in the bedroom with all lights switched off.
That was something that the past chicken me will never do... You will either end up quarreling over the lights or fighting one another, if u "shut off my lights"
Perhaps, when you are down with nothing to lose, you will have nothing to fear :)
Or perhaps when you live too long in darkness, it's a human instinct to grow our natural survivor skill.... To live on..
Can't help but bursting into tears this morning when I met Aysel... She said I looked pale, and i started updating her on my condition. The more I talked the more tears flowed naturally hahaha..
Alright.. Time for bed.. Patient needs rest now .. To be continued..
