had been hanging in arcade this two days.... to forget abt something unhappy...... i always thot i was strong.... but the moment i saw my mum in this state, i really cant help but to cry in the nights...
very sick n ill also.... dunno wat happen to me... keep having fever until now then feel better... hai~~~~
the day before... the father tt nv did his part ever since the day i was born came... i thot he came for wat... In fact he wan their marriage cert and our birth cert... For divorce purpose... :( .... when i told my mum abt it... i can see the immediate sadness on her face... He was my mum only man in her life... one n only yet so miserable... Everyone kept telling my mum:" aiya.. this type of heartless bastard, divorce good la... u got freedom,.... dun think so much la, think for wat... he heartless de y feel sorry?? " Words are easier then Action... i can feel how my mum feel... but i really dunno how to console her... i am so stressed... saw my results already... all Cs,Ds... i even had one failed... and required to take supp paper... i cant breath le.... i felt tt i had let my mum down... n i keep on pressing my self over my own limit...... No one to talk to.... hai~~ even got ppl to tok... also no point... say for wat.... same old story... ppl listen not sian, i tok also sian... nightmares... I hope they can leave away from me...
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