my face rot last week due to applying toothpaste on pimples..
Fcuk.. was in bad mood tt few days.. every where i went, ppl was looking at me n avoiding me as if i am a mad woman with contingous dieases.. Went to see doc, had 2 days mc, but wasted one day cos was having a presentation, being the grp leader, i had to be present no matter wat.. for ur information, i was so so scare, so nervous and was hidding behind the table, afraiding every1 will see my leg shivering..
my course coordinator was to see me regarding my attendance thingy.. got a hurtful scolding.. the whole week sux, except tt i got 100 from my god-dad to shop, its been decades ever since the last i shopped.. brought nothing much la, brought a maroon colour dress for my kor kor wedding in june, and some cosmetics.. today back from the short weekends, i was late for my morning lec, reached sch at 12 noon rather than 9am.. hai~ I CANT WAKE UP on time, so pissed off with myself.. my frens can go off so early today, but i need to stay till six .. alone.. so bored n upset..hope he could come n accompany me.. yet i get him saying:" u know i dun like to go ur sch one lor" not only tt,in the morning, found my love-shape necklace missing, so anxious abt it like hell lor... kept calling him to check whther he took it.. guess wat ...he left it at my sis hse.. the cookies i made for him was also left there.. he left me alone to go hm and left me with my sis in cwp while he can hop on his bro car to go hm, leave me all alone to go hm.. all type of excuses came out when he is unwilling to do something i asked him to do so... fine~~ wats the use to force u to do the thing u dun wan to?? he then claimed :" u say dun need de ma, i say i wan already then u say no need, not my fault" hello evry1 am i his gf??wat else can i say.. u all say he is a good guy tressure him... u all see him as good.. one to often say hurtful words and siding his mother tt i am a outsider, one who often made me cry in both on my face and in my heart... i make him as first prioriy, hoping myself to have every minutes beside him, if u r sick to see me.. say it.. the most i entertain my frens.. i dun see the reason if u dun wan to see me, y should i see u.. i make effort while he doesnt seem to tressure them.. wats the use, i force myself to entertain ur famiy members, u think i like.. i cant be bothered lor. but for ur sake, i beared them ... u say u know.. may i ask wat the hell u know, wat the fcuk u understand.. I HAD ENOUGH ANG SHEN CHENG.. am i really so god damm idiot for u to put more effort in?? is so.. NVM end of story..i am trying my best to be nice to you, but u seems to be treating me like a fool. i swear readers i will nt blog anything else abt my unhappiness of him again.. in fact NEVER.. oh ya, if u felt ym blog tagging too sacastic or wat u r welcome not to read it, COS ITS MY BLOG.. i can write watever i like, if u can take it, too bad