Mummy's admited to hospital early morning 4a.m .. heard from brother.. my mood sunk..
i wasnt a good daughter really... i wasnt by her side when she needed me.. i hate myself.. all the inmature me did was to anger n anger her.. The week b4 CNY she jus complained to me tt she was bullied in the company.. supervisors framed her, scream at her in front of everyone else, she shame herself, she cried, my heart melts.. hw i wish i can go to her company n punch up everyone who bullied my mum.. i nv knew work there was so tiring, the work actually required the poor her to carry heavy stuffs from over so many years.. i had no idea y? Why i mean the first thing she came home in the past was to scream at me, nag non-stop, cane me, violence etc, i din even use my stupid brain to think WHY? She's nt a robort or wat, she cant have a pairs of obedience childrens, all her kids do was messed up the house when she went work, leave all the housework to her, she had to cook the 3 meals for us, worry abt whether her kids were fine in sch, grades,.. etc etc.. many many more.. i was still mad abt her n hate her to core for not giving me a prefect family, for paying more attention to work than me...

when i reaches my sec sch period i was rebelious.. i kept picking up quarells with her, anger her, cold wars, ran away from home till midnights... etc n etc, i always scold her 3- letters to cindy, complained how suxing n bitch she was

Now.. at the age of 21.. then i finally understand the hardships she's been thru the past 15 years, or indeed taste some hardships in the society.

I'm sorry Mum.. Sorry for being such a Disobedient daughter.. i wan to give u better life really!!, give me a few years more, Do wait for me.. i will let you live in luxery with all i can.. i will save up to let u go overseas enjoy, eat good n stay good.. tts a promise.. I really loves you for everything.. A million Sorries.


wish i had enough money. then my mum can stop working.. u know from the